i've dragged out moving into the new place as long s humanly possible but this afternoon it will be complete and this evening after work, i will sleep there. mer.
there's been lots floating around my brain box and this morning instead of driving, i walked to my parents. the weather is nice enough and it was nice to decompress a little.
i want to go to ABQ this weekend but there is much to think about. driving there. staying there. tickets. how all of these cost money. how im going to watch poetry but not read any. how i've been doing a lot of that lately.
mer.
there's been lots floating around my brain box and this morning instead of driving, i walked to my parents. the weather is nice enough and it was nice to decompress a little.
i want to go to ABQ this weekend but there is much to think about. driving there. staying there. tickets. how all of these cost money. how im going to watch poetry but not read any. how i've been doing a lot of that lately.
mer.
Over the course of April I have not been writing a new poem every day, but i do have a new poem that i''ve worked on almost every day. My work lacks something to be desired on the page- mostly due to my awful grammar and lack of understanding of the way poetry should be structured. but i think you can get the idea. It's not for one person but an amalgam of men who have left em feeling a little more like a halfway house than a home.
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- Music:creature fear- Bon Iver
much like stephen, ive been listening to music and also applying the songs to people i know. some of it seems so fitting.
if you wanna know ill tell you what you are.
edit: it's actually more like the short mix CD i would make to remind myself of you.
if you wanna know ill tell you what you are.
edit: it's actually more like the short mix CD i would make to remind myself of you.
i have given up and gotten a twitter account.
melseykiller
melseykiller
im also thinking about new music.
tell me one album to listen to.
your favorite the best whatever.
whoisthespirit - i'm looking at you here.
tell me one album to listen to.
your favorite the best whatever.
i like the way life has been looking lately.
it's been really nice throwing myself back into slam and writing and all things that come with it.
was in town this whole week and while i didn't make it to any show but last night's he was phenomenal. first, can we discuss that radio voice of his? he should be announcing sporting events for a living. but it was really fun to watch the audience squirm in their chairs with HUGE smiles on their faces; it was the perfect amalgam of stain and sentiment. not to mention that he's not a bad guy to look at for 30 minutes. His visit (and also
jwbaz 's) have made me homesick for my friends in ABQ. I'm certainly going out to southwest shootout if it means rubbing elbows with Adam, Damien, Eric etc.
there were tons of poets out last night and it was a really fun and solid night of poetry. lots of high school kids - who were pretty good for their first time out; and the audience, oh the audience, was so engaged and flattering. everyone seemed to read particularly well and it was a crazy cut from 15 to 5 between the first and second rounds. i've been putting up this new poem that i am actually really proud of and then round two i read a poem i don't think i'll be bringing out for a really long time now. brit is one of my new favorite poets for sure though, it's so cool to see more and more girls come out to read in such a male dominated scene and she is just- magical.
oh,
i was feeling a little haggard by the end of the night and left but not before a pep talk from arrian which was really comforting. "I know sometimes you feel like you're different; and you are, but not in the ways that you think"
I need some help workshopping some stuff so if you've got some spare time and don't mind losing the thousands of brain cells that im sure come with editing my stuff- send me an e-mail! kelsey.n.miller@gmail.com
tonight? SLAM MESA. i'm so very excited to see the new venue but more importantly i'm very excited to see
just watching the trailer for Where the Wild Things Are feels hyper emotional and jarring. the mix of pretty pretty prettyness courtesy of spike jonze directing compiled with the super evocative "wake up" by arcade fire = glorious.
pumped
pumped
- Mood:
hopeful
for anyone interested in the US and Canada's marijuana policy, i would highly suggest this documentary called "The Union"
it's a really straight forward, fair and refreshing view on the pot industry.
blip.tv/file/1356143/
it's a really straight forward, fair and refreshing view on the pot industry.
blip.tv/file/1356143/
so i've been working on this joss whedon poem for a while.
i'm terrified to take it anywhere that i might be heard and judged for it. not because it's dorky, but instead i'm fearful i will be shamed and corrected. is there a joss whedon fact checker out there? will i get my face punched?
i'm terrified to take it anywhere that i might be heard and judged for it. not because it's dorky, but instead i'm fearful i will be shamed and corrected. is there a joss whedon fact checker out there? will i get my face punched?
happy birthday
whoisthespirit !
1. i toyed with the idea of doing this meme all week. now i fear i am too late and have missed the bus. also, i fear no one wants to know 25 things about me. also, chad anderson has made me feel self important for doing this. luckily, i believe in healthy narcissism.
2. i have a dog named yoshi. she is a chocolate lab. she is getting old. sometimes i wonder how i will react when she dies. then i get very sad and think of how she is not that.
3. i cannot really remember the last time i wore a swimsuit. i do not like vast bodies of water. i also do not like my vast body.
4. sometimes i think people i am smarter than i am. i worry they will find out im not and become disappointed.
5. i think other people think i am dumber than i am. i heartily enjoy it when the find out i am not.
6. i struggle a lot with the concept of god. i know we all do. but i find a lot of comfort in the idea of god and religion but i just don't think i can really bring myself to believe it. i for sure don't buy the jesus thing.
7. i wish i could sing. like really really really really wish i could sing. sometimes when i feel really brave, i will record myself singing and then play it back to see how good or bad i am.
8. i often think of packing up and moving away. mostly to the midwest. sometimes to california or boston.
9. i am terrible with money. if i have it, i spend it. i lack some innate ability to budget.
10. i also have a weird neurological condition that tricks my body into thinking i have a brain tumor. i once spent a long time in the hospital because of it, but haven't in a while. i think this is yet one more way to show my lack of follow through. i can't even have a real brain tumor.
11. there are 3 boys i think about often. only one knows that i think about him i think. i hit on david kelley a lot. mostly because it's fun. fear not david kelley, i don't creepily sit and think of you.
12. i flake out a lot. it's something i'm really working on, but i'm a big old giant huge flake.
13. i'm terribly insecure about my breasts. they are large, and are often times the reason i am found attractive, but because of there size, i feel like they are less perky than i would like. because of this i always feel very uncomfortable taking off my bra. it makes me feel far less sexy.
14. i think #13 may be the boldest thing ive ever said in a public sphere. it is also maybe the most honest i've ever been about my body. i'm glad i said it.
15. i have always had this deep-seeded desire to be a redhead. i think this explains my attraction to redheaded men.
16. i think a lot when kissing people. usually about how they are using their tongue. people do weird things when they kiss. this often makes me think if i'm the weird one.
17. i have a SUPER weird maternal instinct/clock. when i turned 16 i started having dreams about having babies/being pregnant. baby shit really makes me crazy. i cried at evry "i'm pregnant movie that came out in '07. including the time i cried at the end of knocked up in front of the several teenage debate boys who i saw it with at HS nats.
18. sometimes i look in the mirror and i'm really pleased with the way i look. not in a "don't hate me because i'm beautiful" way, but more of a "not bad kid, not bad." way.
19. i have a terrible gage of how much people like me. this is applicable to both friends and romantics.
20. i have never had a valentine.
21. i love beer. it's my secret fantasy to become a brewmaster. i also would be entirely pleased owning a bar. if you can finance this dream let me know.
22. sometimes (a lot of times) i stretch the truth. i don't like this very much about myself.
23. i get nervous that at times i adjust my personality to fit the people i'm around.
24. i love really terrible movies. don't get me wrong, i also enjoy good ones (Big Fish is my favorite) but i really love bad ones.
25. i HATE "To Kill a Mockingbird" i've read it 4 times. each time i set out really trying to like it. it's my big secret among people i deem intelligent since for some reason they all love it.
2. i have a dog named yoshi. she is a chocolate lab. she is getting old. sometimes i wonder how i will react when she dies. then i get very sad and think of how she is not that.
3. i cannot really remember the last time i wore a swimsuit. i do not like vast bodies of water. i also do not like my vast body.
4. sometimes i think people i am smarter than i am. i worry they will find out im not and become disappointed.
5. i think other people think i am dumber than i am. i heartily enjoy it when the find out i am not.
6. i struggle a lot with the concept of god. i know we all do. but i find a lot of comfort in the idea of god and religion but i just don't think i can really bring myself to believe it. i for sure don't buy the jesus thing.
7. i wish i could sing. like really really really really wish i could sing. sometimes when i feel really brave, i will record myself singing and then play it back to see how good or bad i am.
8. i often think of packing up and moving away. mostly to the midwest. sometimes to california or boston.
9. i am terrible with money. if i have it, i spend it. i lack some innate ability to budget.
10. i also have a weird neurological condition that tricks my body into thinking i have a brain tumor. i once spent a long time in the hospital because of it, but haven't in a while. i think this is yet one more way to show my lack of follow through. i can't even have a real brain tumor.
11. there are 3 boys i think about often. only one knows that i think about him i think. i hit on david kelley a lot. mostly because it's fun. fear not david kelley, i don't creepily sit and think of you.
12. i flake out a lot. it's something i'm really working on, but i'm a big old giant huge flake.
13. i'm terribly insecure about my breasts. they are large, and are often times the reason i am found attractive, but because of there size, i feel like they are less perky than i would like. because of this i always feel very uncomfortable taking off my bra. it makes me feel far less sexy.
14. i think #13 may be the boldest thing ive ever said in a public sphere. it is also maybe the most honest i've ever been about my body. i'm glad i said it.
15. i have always had this deep-seeded desire to be a redhead. i think this explains my attraction to redheaded men.
16. i think a lot when kissing people. usually about how they are using their tongue. people do weird things when they kiss. this often makes me think if i'm the weird one.
17. i have a SUPER weird maternal instinct/clock. when i turned 16 i started having dreams about having babies/being pregnant. baby shit really makes me crazy. i cried at evry "i'm pregnant movie that came out in '07. including the time i cried at the end of knocked up in front of the several teenage debate boys who i saw it with at HS nats.
18. sometimes i look in the mirror and i'm really pleased with the way i look. not in a "don't hate me because i'm beautiful" way, but more of a "not bad kid, not bad." way.
19. i have a terrible gage of how much people like me. this is applicable to both friends and romantics.
20. i have never had a valentine.
21. i love beer. it's my secret fantasy to become a brewmaster. i also would be entirely pleased owning a bar. if you can finance this dream let me know.
22. sometimes (a lot of times) i stretch the truth. i don't like this very much about myself.
23. i get nervous that at times i adjust my personality to fit the people i'm around.
24. i love really terrible movies. don't get me wrong, i also enjoy good ones (Big Fish is my favorite) but i really love bad ones.
25. i HATE "To Kill a Mockingbird" i've read it 4 times. each time i set out really trying to like it. it's my big secret among people i deem intelligent since for some reason they all love it.
i have lots of free time.
i would like to fill said time with new books, movies and music.
suggestions?
i would like to fill said time with new books, movies and music.
suggestions?
good things that happened:
steven came home
ken came home
my first christmas
not sharing
sharing
reconnecting
getting along with my mom
mitzi
tea lattes
baz visiting
voicemail from stephen michael meads
sushi
white girl wiggle
kickball
aeroplane over the sea
bad things:
not much
i would like to snuggle more than i do, maybe one day i will remedy this.
how are things friends?
steven came home
ken came home
my first christmas
not sharing
sharing
reconnecting
getting along with my mom
mitzi
tea lattes
baz visiting
voicemail from stephen michael meads
sushi
white girl wiggle
kickball
aeroplane over the sea
bad things:
not much
i would like to snuggle more than i do, maybe one day i will remedy this.
how are things friends?
post soon coming about my flakeyness and inability to be a good friend, but for now, this.
please visit www.daywithoutagay.org

please join me and thousands of other members and allies of the GLBT community by "calling in gay" to work on December 10th. it will take all of us to bring injustice to an end. by visiting www.daywithoutagay.org you can find opportunities to devote your day to service organizations in your area. as Amy stated earlier, anyone who thinks this is a gay issue is crazy. this is a HUMAN and CIVIL RIGHTS issue. let's make sure that in 50 years when we look back at the incredible ridiculousness of denying equal rights and protection under the law the we and and our loved ones and friends are standing on the right side of the fence.
please visit www.daywithoutagay.org
please join me and thousands of other members and allies of the GLBT community by "calling in gay" to work on December 10th. it will take all of us to bring injustice to an end. by visiting www.daywithoutagay.org you can find opportunities to devote your day to service organizations in your area. as Amy stated earlier, anyone who thinks this is a gay issue is crazy. this is a HUMAN and CIVIL RIGHTS issue. let's make sure that in 50 years when we look back at the incredible ridiculousness of denying equal rights and protection under the law the we and and our loved ones and friends are standing on the right side of the fence.
CRYING.
im just too happy.
im just too happy.
hey. guys. halloween.
what should i be?
what should i be?
dearest ralphie,
loooooove you.
happy birthday.
kelsey
loooooove you.
happy birthday.
kelsey
